How will YOU die?
He was cold! He was way beyond the kind of temporary cold that gives you shivers. The cold he felt was way down in his bones, and had been there for weeks. He wished for the thousandth time for the cloak he left in Troas. Life would be easier when Timothy arrived with the books and parchments.
Six feet away, across his cell was a large rat. They eyed each other with measured tolerance. He had long tired of trying to make the rat leave for good. The rat always came back. It was no longer worth the effort to accost the rat. He and the rat certainly weren’t friends, but they had learned to co-exist.
He reached over and picked up his writing instrument and parchment. The voice inside him told him to write. So he dipped his quill in the borrowed ink, and began.
As he formulated the words that were appearing in his mind, another part of his mind began to go back over the years…..
He smiled as he remembered that day on the road. It seemed like just yesterday. Then there was the time in Arabia. The years began to unfold like a novel, like a slow motion reel.
He drifted back through the years, the cities, the trials, the beatings, and the stonings. Once again he asked himself if he had done all his master had asked of him. He honestly could not see any way it could have turned out differently.
The other part of his mind returned back to the parchment, and he began.
For I am now ready to be offered, and the time of my departure is at hand. I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course. I have kept the faith. Henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness….
He finished the final words of his last letter. He was well aware he would never again pen another syllable.
He heard the jingle of keys. Marcus came into view. Marcus was his most recent convert, albeit secretly. He said to Marcus,”It’s okay, I understand.” Tears began a slow roll down Marcus’ cheeks.
He rose, straightened, and started for the door, and noticed the rat seemed to be smirking.
The stairs seemed steeper than he remembered. The light of day was blinding. He had lost count of the days in the underground cell. Slowly he looked around. Spring had arrived, his last spring of his 67 years.
He saw the executioner waiting. How far? Maybe a hundred steps? He started the final one hundred steps of his earthly journey. He drew up at the chopping block.
With one long last look around the Appian Way, and a smile for Marcus tear stained face, he knelt and placed his head on the block. The Roman official placed a check next to his name on the slate and nodded to the ax man.
In one slow movement, while heaven held it’s breath, the ax was raised. It paused for a fraction of a second, then in blinding speed arched downward. His head, severed from his body rolled over the edge of the block and dropped to the ground and rolled twice. Unseeing eyes on mortal earth stared upward.
In the immeasurable moment when head and body were separated, his spirit was free. He was free of the hardships, free of the privation. He was free and approaching the gates.
The gate was also about one hundred steps. He could see the crowds cheering. It was that great cloud of witnesses he had written about in his letter to the Hebrews.
They were all there. Some were from the highlands of Galatia, others from the sea coasts of Macedonia. There were some from Caesars’ household, and some converted rulers of the synagogue.
They were waiting, cheering, and welcoming him home.
And then there was Jesus for the first time.
He never quite remembers those last few steps, he only remembers falling at Jesus feet. And the words, “Well done, thou good and faithful servant.”
So Paul, the Christian sage of the ages died.
How will YOU die?
Will you be bitter?
Will you have regrets?
In the prison, Paul called himself “The prisoner of the Lord.” He knew that no mere, mortal Caesar could imprison an apostle without his master’s assent.
Do you see your prison as approved by the master?
How will YOU die?
Thanks for reading today!
I just buried a precious lady of holiness today at eleven o’clock. I wept Thursday as I held her hand and said “this is Pastor Self Sis, if you know who I am, squeeze my hand. I felt the firm grip of her cancer stricken hand as she turned her morphine glazed eyes to me and I think she knew. It was her last day of conciousness. It was the last time I saw her alive. She developed breast cancer in 1995, decided to trust God instead of treatments…She faced certain death with one of the bravest spirits I have ever seen. Less than a year ago, at 76, she ran (yes) to the front of the church, grabbed my hand and began to dance and worship God. When I asked her why she did that, she said, I wanted to dance with my shepherd one more time before I can’t do it any more. I treasure that memory as much as any I have. I do not know how I will go, where I will go from, or when that time will be, I can only pray that I face death with the same courage and strength that Sis. Randall did this week. Sorry for the personal note on your blog Elder, but this was so very timely for me today. There is nothing more beautiful in the eyes of the Lord than the death of His saints. Painful as the days leading up to death was and can be for us, we live our whole life for THAT MOMENT. God Bless you Bro. Bow for blessing me today.
Elder, please please post that in CAF. That will bless hundreds of people! You made me weep!
Absolutely beautiful. That will make a wonderful entry on my blog as well. Let Me Dance One More Time With My Shepherd. Thank you for sharing.
Thanks to both of you for sharing. Deeply moving & fitting as we age & watch others pass before us.
Very eye opening, makes you think of the environment not just the words. Lord I want to die with a song in my heart and praise on my lips.
Amazing! Don’t know what else to say but just a truly amazing story!
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